This is so frustrating! What is happening and why is no one hearing me? The room seems to have no end to it. In my state of confusion, I manage to trip and fall over a stack of books. They are some old Dr. Seuss books like Green Eggs and Ham, Horton Hears a Who!, and the ultimate classic, The Cat in the Hat. I have a lot of memories of reading these books with my mommy. These are the books that got me to love reading.
There was a period in my life when I can recall simple times. I didn’t worry as much or get so lost. Somewhere along the way, things got a little messed up for me and those around me. I can’t remember where stuff got all messed up. I want to go back to sitting with my mommy and reading my books. Since I can’t, I have to figure out how to make things simple again, if it’s not too late.
Where is my mom so I can talk to her? I need my happy times back. I know that she can help me get them back. She has told me that before. “Mommy, where are you?”
“How is my sweet pea doing today? I don’t know why you like to make me worry so much,” I hear my mom answer me.
“I’m so sorry for worrying you. I get so confused sometimes and don’t know what else to do,” I tell her.
“If you keep this up, there will be a time when you won’t be able to come back from this. Why would you want to do that to me?”
“Mommy, I promise that I will try harder. It just gets so rough sometimes and I can’t handle it.”
“You are worth so much more than this. April, you have to do the work though and stop running from everything,” my mommy says as she starts to cry.
I don’t like to hear my mom cry. “Please don’t cry, Mommy! I’m right here…I didn’t run away.”
“Do you know why I named you April? It wasn’t because you were born in April, though it fits. I named you April because it’s a time of growth. Things come back to life after appearing dead throughout the winter. I see growth in you. I need you to see what I see, baby. The April showers make things blossom. Well, I’m crying over you, sweet pea! It’s time for you to bloom.”
“Mommy, I will be fine. I have to get my mind and feelings right. I don’t expect you to understand everything that I go through, especially because I don’t understand it all. I’m still trying to comprehend when and where things started going downhill for me. When I get that part, then I know I will be better.”
“Well, sweet pea, I will see you soon. I hope you are listening to me.”
I hear my mom start walking across the room. “Mommy, where are you going? Why are you leaving me here? I swear I’m listening to you! Please don’t leave me in this attic. I’m ready to come out now! Mommy!”Things come back to life after appearing dead throughout the winter. Click To Tweet
Written by Dani Powell, RM Entertainment Original Story Contributor